Roller Coaster~!@

Emotional roller coaster it has been, Ups and downs, twists and turns, Life In the absence of your smile, That invigorates a sense of joy, A feel of something new, Something exotic that awaits you and me,

That thing I always craved for, Sitting under a pine tree, by a lake, Watching the clouds play hide and seek, With the sun smiling despite the agony, Of his shadows, as the only thing he could render, To the world was all hidden, Beneath those dark sheets of sky, Thunders growl, lightning flickers, And I immerse my soul into yours, No expectations, and no retribution at all, For all happened was written in our destiny.

Yet, I can't seem to forget, Your beautiful face, radiating as usual, With the smile, that got me wanting you, That kept me thinking, This was it, this was it, Yet, everything fell apart, you bade a farewell, So casually as if my existence was in doubt, As if my presence didn't mean anything to you.

Alternate Dimension

Early dawn broke across your face,

Like rose-tipped fingers dipped in gold,

Sensation that ran across,

When a shiny ray tickled my body,

An urge to hide,

Hide and burrow into my pores,

A light show underneath my skin,

I wrapped myself up, into your arms,

Trying to elude shadows of fear,

Trying to trick them into evaporating,

Smoke through a keyhole,

But the fear that still lingered,

Despite your soothing words, and your hands caressing me,

The fear that escalated lapped me up,

And desolation laughed along with misery,

At misery of your solitude and mockery of my innocence,

Threaded together, creating a steel cable that ran unbroken,

Binding itself to reality,

The moment of honesty is what you whispered,

Beneath your murmurs in this vague reality

Whispers of truth that hang themselves from your mouth,

Like dripping drops of morning dew,

But is that the freedom you wished for?

Like those morning dew that evaporate with the rising sun,

For despite all this, I am still convinced,

That we are each other’s salvation,

Or may be salvation is far-fetched,

And dreams took over your conscience,

This half-alive state of surreal-ness fogs my sense of time,

And everything slows down, creating an alternate dimension.

--Composed together by Jacqueline Terra and Paudel

Willing Victim

In the midst of mystery, I forgot

To remember the desires of my intuitive destiny

Hiding beneath my self-wounds, I lost,

Ability to pull shattered glass shards from my flesh,

And I wondered all along where you hid,

Beneath the cold dark shadows of the skeleton trees,

Duped I was, by the hidden mystery and their dead fallen leaves,

But I kept thinking,

That the illusion of you would be more than mere mirage,

But was it all I wanted? Did you think the same?

This unspoken dynamics,

Broke upon my soul like battering salt-water against eroding shoreline,

Yet you kept walking along the shore,

Greens mosses, lichens and that smile,

Oh that smile that curled, slowly across your face,

And wrapped itself up in your hair,

That dark-blonde hair of yours,

That lurked beneath your shoulders and those enticing lips,

Drew me into the honey, a willing victim eager for your pleasure.

--Composed together by Jacqueline Terra & Paudel

Happy Nepali New Year 2070

http://canvassnap.blogspot.com/2013/02/naya-barsha-2070-ko-subhakamana.html

Happy Nepali New Year 2070 to all my friends and family all over the world. Hope this year brings prosperity, joy, and happiness to all our lives. May we all live in peace, may we all have power to confess the truth and face the reality. May we all be bestowed with strengths to handle some tough situations in life. Overall, may we all be happy for who we are. And last not the least, may Nepal get the much-needed constitution and pave the way towards development.

Sincerely yours,
Paudel, Bishal

Don't look for me

A deserted path,

And that forgetful incident,

A fight, always the same,

And the victims of two arrogant souls,

I wait till they laugh,

Despite the raining tears,

I wait till they say,

“Father, I’m not the culprit. Let me go.”

And eternal pleasure that inflows,

And the shadow that lingers,

Over the place I should be buried,

I, me, and my,

Everything within reach,

For I want peace,

I want harmony,

Don’t look for me. 

Today I sing

Today I write for you,

For the hearts full of grace,

For the souls ripe with zeal,

Striving for an existence,

To avoid the humility,

On the brink of devastation,

Today I sing for you,

For the victims of cruelty,

For the quarries of insanity,

Roaring with unheard breath,

To repeal the blame of futility,

In the lack of voice,

Today I speak for you,

For the words against tyranny,

For the voice against suppression,

Yelling for an innate freedom,

To scare the roots of ferocity,

For a deeper understanding of rights,

Today I stand for you,

For the casualties of atrocity,

For the steps towards destiny,

Discarding the trepidation of death,

To live a meaningful life,
For a realization of freedom,

A sovereign flesh, I am,

Blessed with positivity,

No more silence, my friends,

For there’s no periphery of sagacity,

Remorse would I feel, if I compromise,

For there’s no substitute for equality,

“Might is right” is gone my friend,

Open your eyes for a new clarity.

Beg in misery

Amid a huge applause,

I wondered what my hopes were,

Never had a moment to self,

To let me ponder for the soul I care,

Success might be what I had,

And noisy crowd that follows me as wraith,

Hints of glory all over,

Not a single to muse by ablazed faith,

You ruined my confidence,

And yet show your smiling face,

Annoyed by your applause and laughter,

I hide myself behind your grace.

I beg in misery,

A company that could read,

Me and my agony,

Let me alone, you elegant majesty,

To discover the world,

Beyond your periphery.

Clueless

I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you frown,

I’ve seen you naked,

With crimson cheeks, and eyes shiny and brown

Yet you hide your pain under that subtle grin,

So immaculate, so pristine,

Mesmerized I always be, like a pebble in the rain

Like a last drop of dew hanging on the leaves,

As the morning ray shines,

Shadow is all I could leave behind

You may say I left early I fled with the rest,

Would you ever understand,

Whatever I did, I did for the best. 

Chinese New Year 2013

Right when the North-East of the United States is covered with as much as 3 fts of snow, Beijing is busy celebrating the year of snake. The celebration that lasts for about 15 days is celebrated across the globe by billions of people. Let the celebration begin, and let us all wish each other a very prosperous, and joyful Chinese New Year 2013. Lets hope the year of the snake inhales all the venom that lurks around our lives.

Happy Chinese New Year 2013. Cheers!!

Source: www.wallpaperholidays.com

Own me

The heart bleeds,
When the soul is raged by the fire within,
When the sun shines over the dark night,
When immortality outcasts the fear of survival,
When a deep laceration would instead be pleasing,
That moment, yes that moment I shall be obliged to you. 

The deserted streets that ridicule my presence,
Nostalgia of the future that pesters my equanimity,
I wish I could,
I could simply abrogate the space between you and me,
The dilation of the heart that ripples to my entire body,
My wet eyes as eager as your quivering lips,
To embrace the puzzle,
That moment, yes that moment I shall obey your intuitions. 

When I get tucked, when I get absorbed,
In solitary universe, and realms of hinted glory that fade away,
A sharp turn that takes us through,
To infinity that only love can entangle,
I nullify my faith at solitude, beneath a hidden reality,
I wish you could understand,
You could understand me, and my body,
That moment, yes that moment I shall follow your lead. 

Let my lips dwell on yours, for an ever-lasting love we make,
Let me forget anything but you, before my lips dry up,
That moment, yes that moment, you, yes, you will own me.