As I lie in bed of death?

A sense of hatred, animosity, revenge,
All surround me,
As I lie in bed of death!

I see it coming through my eyes,
I feel its dragging me slowly,
To the un-described darkness that I had never seen before,
To a place where my imagination would never explore,
Its staring at me, eyes filled with revenge-full bliss,
I try to smile, try to deceive him despite the pain,
I would laugh, scream, yell, and pacify again,
He stays there as motionless object,
As I lie in bed of death.

I yell back at him- is it death?
"Is it what so called the end of life?"
He would giggle, just keep on staring,
and a sense of relief flows through his face,
I wonder my life came to an end,
As I lie in bed of death.

Smell of disgust float the space,
Down in the earth,
Fragrance of bitterness, and a heavy rain,
A big thunder scares them all,
All my family, and friends,
They are also speechless, they would not feel my pain,
They would talk about how great the life is,
In an ironic tone, they would flatter me,
And they seemed restless,
As if they are waiting me to go, a long long way,
Beyond the dark bands in the horizon,
As I lie in bed of death.

I see an end, very close to me,
Much more friendlier than anyone had ever been to me,
Surrounded in an anguish of failures,
I recollect my past, I recall the gone days,
So vivid, so clear, in my eyes,
As if I were there at each moment,
I feel the pain again, a sudden throb of my heart-beat,
I failed in life, I failed to cherish those moments,
I failed to appreciate how beautiful life was,
Now, I realize its too late,
As I lie in the bed of death.

A fear of death vanishes, I smile once again,
I want to cherish every second I'm left with,
I try to loosen the grip, and run away,
Run away from this scary end back to the life again,
But, the grip becomes much tight,
Despite my request, despite my plea,
He kept on pulling me, to the darkness,
A battle between plea and arrogance,
I would rather commit suicide than let others kill me,
As the world will see,
As I lie in the bed of death tonight!