Nothing Lost

“Look through me”, a sharp scream
Penetrated the placidity
With emaciated flesh, imprints of bone
Sunken eyes, pale appearance
A clear distinction marked them all
And that fragility beyond my images

I stared at him with disdain
Scorn and mockery of impoverishment
All my sketches of an ideal world
Ruined ahead this brittle shape
Countable ribs with undisturbed circulation
A good working physiology hidden
Otherwise declared dead a long ago

With gratifying smiles over the wrinkled face
Gesticulation over the infinite atmosphere
He speaks of the meaning of life
Speculation of optimism within
I wonder what a zeal underlies this penury

I lost my presence
Busy over raw calculation
Difference between his fate and my anguish
Captured in the hallucination of hope
I was lost amid nowhere
A sharp scream indeed, Gifted me the senses
All I could perceive
Was a satirical giggle over my tribulation,

“You have everything with you” he noted
“Nothing just clarified” I breathed
“Boundless ways”
“But restriction everywhere”
“Nothing lost”
“All is vague”
“You have the time”
“I could not catch it”
“Just go along” he paused and then a silence for some time
“What is survival then?” he bounced back
“An irony”- I exclaimed.
No, it is pride
A Solace
No it is dignity, and I am proud of my life
It’s a consolation being alive
No! No! It’s best among the rest.

I stopped as I thought I could not go on
Dissipated, I returned to my world
Lay on the bed, could not get sleep
The flashes of the day would come to my memory
Vivid, lucid as though he were almost there
Analyzed his hopes and my affliction
Oh! God, I was terribly wrong
A strong desire to live ran through me
Life is real worth, I realized then
I could not catch sleep afterward
In eagerness to start a new day